I fucking miss swimming.
I’ve swam pretty much my entire life. I started at the age of 4 and stopped when I was 18. I didn’t swim much when I was 18, I only went to a couple of meets. I just miss it a lot. I should have swam for my high school because honestly I was a great swimmer. Even when I swam just in my summer league I was beating girls that were swimming year round. I don’t know, I was just a natural at it. I belonged in the pool. I’ve also been lifeguarding since I was fifteen. But this is the first year that i’m not. It was the closest thing I had to swimming. I at least had a pool I could jump in and do laps for hours. Now I have to go to the Y to do that, and it’s just not the same. I’d rather be in an outside pool competing. It’s so weird to think that most of my life was revolved around swimming and now it’s just gone. I still have so many ribons, trophies and medals i’ve accumulated over the years. I also have a couple videos from when I was basically number 1 in my entire summer league for backstroke and freestyle. I’ll probably just bust them out tomorrow and cry. It’s just so weird how something is a big part of your life and then it’s just done.
